It's Me
I've felt this feeling before
Let me think, where could it have been
No it wasn't a rape or assault, or even an ugly scene
On the tip of my tongue but I just can't recall
All the feelings I felt or the shame of it all
so you'd best carry on, when we get to the end
I will no doubt reflect on the message you send
And remember the days when
There wasn't this haze in my mind


Well your feelings are good there's no doubt about that in my mind
But this other emotion is bothering me, the one that I can't seem to find
But it's coming real soon as you walk out the door
It's abandonment, yes - and it's happened before
And I felt it when dad died though he was quite bad
And I felt it when mum died and I got real sad
And I felt it when He went - I felt it when She went
I've felt this way for each friend I recall
And I'm feeling it now as you walk down the hall
And it's hurting so bad I curl up in a ball
And start shrinking away till I'm nothing at all in my mind

Instrumental...

Reflecting on the events of the day, Melissa finds it easy to identify with Badbits' profound sence of abandonment and begins to ponder the mysteries of the various conflicting relationships within herself.

It occurs to Melissa that for every part that threatens to bring CPI down there is always another, who, for reasons that Melissa can not entirely grasp, stubornly refuses to let that happen no matter what.

It is the first time ever that Melissa wonders if she might yet become "a survivor".

The thought inspires her and she begins to respond to Badbits.






But wait, what is this, I think I've remembered
The last time that I felt this way, I survived
There was somebody there, and though they were remote
Oh I do wish they'd thought on to leave me a note
Saying just who they were and where they could be found
Oh I'm getting it now and wow, is this profound!


It was me!



In the back of my mind there's a part of me knows
That I am still here, no matter who goes
That I'm willing and able to pull myself through
I'm more willing and able than someone like you
I can kick my own arse, drag my butt off the floor
I can do it again cos I've done it before

It's Me!

In the back of my mind there's a part of me knows
That I'm always here, no matter who goes
That I'm willing and able to pull myself through
Far more willing and able than someone like you
'Cos I kick my own arse, drag my butt off the floor
I can do it again cos I've done it before

It's Me!

It's Me!

It's Me!

It's Me!

And with that thought carressing the corners of her mind Melissa
whipered goodnight to Badbits and slept soundly for the first time in weeks.


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